Thought I'd write a little entry today just before my test tomorrow... Somehow I do the most random of all things when the exams are here, I think it's a procrastination tactic. Anyhoo, this is my last semester in school. I'm tremendously excited though I secretly find it a drag to finish this, not forgetting the internship I'll have to slog through the next half of the year, no kidding. The days are just flying back since I don't have much school and I'm barely doing anything now. I think I should enjoy this last leg, it feels different. Come to think of it, EVERYTHING feels different after the U.S. trip. Like my mind was blown apart and pieced together again.. I think I missed out a piece çause I stone even more than before now, l.o.l. Anyway, there's a lot of things I can't quite put together as of yet. I'm feeling a bit of uncertainty- but is it really just a fear of failure that I have? I'm riding that over because God's greater than anything and I'm not gonna let some stupid fear of embarrassment or incapability to hold me down. If God made us extravagant, it's time to shine and show the world who He really is. I think it's amazing that an amazing GOD created us in His image, that we too are amazing. And sometimes it's just hard to believe that we were created to be excellent because of all that false humility and lies, but the truth is that we're not awesome because of what we can do or what we're trying to accomplish. We're awesome because we're created by an awesome God, we're beautiful because we're created by the One whose name is beauty, we're wonderful because we're made by a God of wonders! That just blows my mind really. It's like when God said "I AM who I AM". I've always wondered why He said that. I think it's because God is so full of honour and is so rooted in His own nature, or it could be that He wants us to explore more of what He's like. Haha honestly I still have no idea what that means, it's just a wandering thought I'd like to figure out someday. I think for the past many years of my life, I failed to honour who God has created me. And when we lack that honour, we fail to see who we are and we can potentially be. And when we ourselves can't recognise that, so can't others. I believe it is time to honour the person that God made me to be, and in that same way I am honouring the Creator, who created for a purpose. We project ourselves and our personality when we believe who we truly are, and there is absolutely no room to have to prove ourselves and to fight to be understood. I think a lot of misunderstandings and failed attempts in proving what we're like stems from the lack of belief in who God made us to be. I believe the word that was spoken, that this is a season of confidence with God, with the One who made me & calls me by name. and of nightly visitations... God I am ready!