In the past, I remember the moments I spent reflecting on my life. I remember thinking how "sad" my life was, not having many friends, not having much parties, not having much fun, not living it out so to speak. And I would always jokingly say that I don't have much of a life, "no life" ya know...though I did carry some thoughts with what I said. Comparing the life that my sister had/has, I was pretty much a hermit or mountain turtle, whatever it is. And so just the other day, this same thought penetrated my mind. And then I thought wooww, yeah this is actually kinda tragic. Everybody's moving forward but I'm stuck where I am. I don't look to the future 'cause I can't, my social circle doesn't even form a circle and technically speaking, my social life is dead. So I thought to myself, schemed on how to make more friends, maybe go to pubs and stuff I don't know. Just as I thought that, the Holy Spirit I believe, brought a verse to remembrance. "Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for My sake will find it." I never took note of this verse. I've always thought it was referring to people who denied Jesus at death point. But bringing the verse into this context, it seems like what Jesus is referring to is also this worldly life choice that we carry. Are social events, materialism, money, parties, merry-making and whatever out there really the life we should strive to live for ? Or is there something greater out there, a life that is real, a life that flows like living water, a meaningful life that is eternal...? Jesus also spoke of our old selves being crucified with Him. We will only be able to live as overcomers when we release ourselves to Him and enter His rest. This may sound religious and all but I think I've finally found the answer to this... and I'll be keeping at it. Just remember that the worldly kingdom cannot be mixed with the Godly, you can only put both feet in one world, lest you split apart to a miserable death together with those that are in the world.