Dead. I don't feel like going for the exam at all. What's the point anyway, I'm just gonna get a few marks more than zero if I go, plus I'd probably embarrass myself...But seems like I can't not go, I guess it's the embarrass-yourself-with-a-single-digit option for me. Frankly speaking, I did bother to try and read. It just doesn't go in, and the page just doesn't move. So I try in all my effort to tell myself okay you gotta do this and you can do it. DOESN'T SEEM TO WORK REALLY. I'm stuck like a lil' chicken in a rotting coop. And yet, I can't quit. While waiting for the bus yesterday in the morning, I felt the Lord say " Michelle, to do what I want you to accomplish, you have to finish this course. " I could be wrong I don't know, but I also felt that the opportunities that came by and went were confirmations regarding this matter. I have utterly no idea how this course is gonna relate to my future besides aiding me in getting a position as an apprentice in animal training but other than that, I guess everything is in the hands of the Lord. Now to put some effort and work harder after the holidays, or whatever, I'm just gonna graduate with a GPA of 1.0. Pathetic it seems, but who knows what the future holds, other than God obviously. Now I gotta brace myself and get a good 5/50, or maybe even lesser. I REALLY NEED A SUPERNATURAL ENCOUNTER NOW.