Three more days before I set out on my survey hunt. Torley is going back to my uncle's house today :( . Shit I've to change Buds cage tomorrow plus there's stupid csas test... Ew man I hate doing redundant things. Anyhoo, I've decided to face reality by being realistic about school. I know that I will have the urge to quit the minute my holiday ends. I shall depend on the survey and see how it goes. What I want to do in the future has no relevance to what I am doing now. And that is the problem with the world. It can't stop at "just right" or "slightly less", it makes you go the extra mile by taking in extra, redundant knowledge which is to be sucked in and deposited out even though it doesn't relate to you. I rather spend my time training 1000 sea otters to open a can of coke than spend my time in the lecture theater listening (dreaming rather) to something which is utterly useless...I remember saying to others : "If you have to do it, you have to". But it is evident that you HAVE a choice and so I take back what I said there. In any case, life is short and you only get to live it once (yes there is afterlife in heaven or hell depending on how you lived yours on earth). I'm not saying to take drugs and smoke weed because that is obviously shortening your life even further and also destroying it. What I'm saying is live it to the fullest, if you enjoy studying you jolly well stay in school and study, if you enjoy painting you stick your butt somewhere and paint till your heart's content, if you enjoy training animals you should be frikin' out there training a herd of elephants! That's what I'm saying, don't let this effed up education lead your life. Yeah you may say "if I don't study I won't have money and I won't be happy" But do you really think education is going to bring you happiness and wealth ? Only Jesus can do that. You can develop your passion into a talent which will generate dough and happiness. Don't doubt that man, don't ever doubt that. Unless you have an outstanding grade, what makes you different from the million others who have the same grade as you. Nothing. NOTHING. I don't even know why I'm being forced to study. There is no learning if there is no interest. God can you hear my prayer. I need an answer now.